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The Meaning of Words Part 2-Is that what they really meant?

Those who use media to communicate to the American People are not being careful with their labels. I have been talking to my television for years. Certain news discussions or political shows there has been an influx of very intelligent historians and experts on authoritarians and dictatorships. These discussions go on and get repeated onContinue reading “The Meaning of Words Part 2-Is that what they really meant?”

Salute to Veterans Day

My brothers and I grew up while Vietnam was an active conflict, Congress never called it a war. I remember waiting for their birth dates to be called in the Selective Service Draft lottery. The older ones had numbers in the high 200s. With going to college, the war was over by the time itContinue reading “Salute to Veterans Day”

Lost in Memory

This is the first year that I couldn’t remember the date when my husband died. I, who remembered everything, woke up in late September and had no reference point. No way to remember. Being stubborn and knowing there was a message here, I decided to live with this unknowing until I knew again. This isContinue reading “Lost in Memory”

Grieving Isn’t A Spectator Sport

Its a roller coaster ride that doesn’t really ever end. I stopped writing in the middle of last month. As I approached the ending of the month, I got swamped by feelings of inertia, of a different loss. October 25th was the eighth anniversary of my husband’s death. I was also swamped with the sixteenContinue reading “Grieving Isn’t A Spectator Sport”

paperclip necklace resistance

In 1970, I started college at a local Catholic University. I was 17-1/2 years old living at home. Despite that college at the New York City University system was free, St. John’s University was the only school that my mother would allow. Her reasoning was that the college president had kept the campus calm duringContinue reading “paperclip necklace resistance”

Is That What You Meant To Say?

Words, or should I say the meaning of words, is important to me. I only wish that those in the media would feel the same. In the last few days, the words used in the reports of DOJ investigations into former justice employees gets under my skin. The media calls these individuals “political enemies”. They’reContinue reading “Is That What You Meant To Say?”

Resilience for a Day of Sadness

Today, I listened to the author, ELI SHARABI who wrote Hostage about his experience of being a hostage of Hamas for almost 500 days after he lost both his wife, children and kubutz on October 7, 2023. I had to write down and share his answer to the following question: “How did you deal withContinue reading “Resilience for a Day of Sadness”

My Ironical Timing

I finally overcome my reticence to become public on the internet and I lose use of my computer. I have wanted to post on this blog for a few years. But I hesitated. Recently I took my fears and decided to face them and start this process. Some of this fear started when I gotContinue reading “My Ironical Timing”

For Whom the bell tolls, it tolls for Thee

The targeted shooting and murder of Charlie Kirk in Utah has caused me to stop my normal routine. I find it important to stand witness through the process of grief that another human has harmed another human being. so I remain trapped within the news cycle. I do try and self-protect in the avalanche ofContinue reading “For Whom the bell tolls, it tolls for Thee”

Reflecting Back, again – flash fiction

I touched the roughen ridge around my eye for the tenth time in the same amount of minutes. I put my hand underneath my butt to stop myself from that repetitive motion. I am afraid I will turn into my old golden lab who licked his paw raw as the thunder storm occurred overhead. IContinue reading “Reflecting Back, again – flash fiction”