life – thoughts keeping me awake

Lost in Memory

This is the first year that I couldn’t remember the date when my husband died. I, who remembered everything, woke up in late September and had no reference point. No way to remember. Being stubborn and knowing there was a message here, I decided to live with this unknowing until I knew again. This isContinue reading “Lost in Memory”

My Ironical Timing

I finally overcome my reticence to become public on the internet and I lose use of my computer. I have wanted to post on this blog for a few years. But I hesitated. Recently I took my fears and decided to face them and start this process. Some of this fear started when I gotContinue reading “My Ironical Timing”

For Whom the bell tolls, it tolls for Thee

The targeted shooting and murder of Charlie Kirk in Utah has caused me to stop my normal routine. I find it important to stand witness through the process of grief that another human has harmed another human being. so I remain trapped within the news cycle. I do try and self-protect in the avalanche ofContinue reading “For Whom the bell tolls, it tolls for Thee”

Reflecting Back, again – flash fiction

I touched the roughen ridge around my eye for the tenth time in the same amount of minutes. I put my hand underneath my butt to stop myself from that repetitive motion. I am afraid I will turn into my old golden lab who licked his paw raw as the thunder storm occurred overhead. IContinue reading “Reflecting Back, again – flash fiction”