love – thoughts keeping me awake

Lost in Memory

This is the first year that I couldn’t remember the date when my husband died. I, who remembered everything, woke up in late September and had no reference point. No way to remember. Being stubborn and knowing there was a message here, I decided to live with this unknowing until I knew again. This isContinue reading “Lost in Memory”

Grieving Isn’t A Spectator Sport

Its a roller coaster ride that doesn’t really ever end. I stopped writing in the middle of last month. As I approached the ending of the month, I got swamped by feelings of inertia, of a different loss. October 25th was the eighth anniversary of my husband’s death. I was also swamped with the sixteenContinue reading “Grieving Isn’t A Spectator Sport”

My Ironical Timing

I finally overcome my reticence to become public on the internet and I lose use of my computer. I have wanted to post on this blog for a few years. But I hesitated. Recently I took my fears and decided to face them and start this process. Some of this fear started when I gotContinue reading “My Ironical Timing”

Reflecting Back, again – flash fiction

I touched the roughen ridge around my eye for the tenth time in the same amount of minutes. I put my hand underneath my butt to stop myself from that repetitive motion. I am afraid I will turn into my old golden lab who licked his paw raw as the thunder storm occurred overhead. IContinue reading “Reflecting Back, again – flash fiction”